Gahh! I always spend too much money, but I'm glad I did. I love shopping.....for other people. *cough* I got a lot of sweet loot, and I went into Hollister for the first time. I know why I don't go in there. First off, its dark! How the hell can I buy my expensive, girly clothing in the dark?! Another thing, that store just kicks the shit outta my self-esteem. It's like a self-proclaimed doctrine of how to look. Stupid autonomic American bastards and hoes! But yeah anyway, today events realy got me angry. Nuff said. I'll be bitchin' tomorrow no doubt yo!

Later Fools!

<33 tainted

god i'm never gunna curb that habit



< James

I feel like a fuckin' wastoid. You know I was wondering when someone would piss me off enough to make me go back to the emo dump. Here I am. Time to let loose. You know what's funny? Me neither. I don't know sometimes. I mean give me a fucking break. Alright. Ranting...Let's start at the beginning. Saturday I was hanging with Chantal BECAUSE SHE IS MY FRIEND. Now I made the mistake of mentioning the fact that I was there to Lorrie because I should have visited her. So instead of like you know inviting me to hang out every once in a while, I should randomly go there and visit. Right? You guys get it? Anyway, let's put this in perspective. HYPOTHETICALLY! Matt lives on a street about a mile and a half away from me. Lorrie goes to hang out with him, but Matt and me are none to close (hypothetically, Matt's cool) in fact we used to be best friends but now we hate each other. So Matt is going through a tough time and wants to do nothing but walk with his friend, Lorrie. They walk on the street across from mine. I don't even see them go by. Lorrie thinks that I probably won't be home or that I will be asleep or with my family. So she says, "Why don't we go see if James is home?" Matt acts like it is a joke. So she decides it might not be the best idea. I mean it would be rude to leave your friend to go see another friend who you don't even know is home. When you get there you are just going to say "Hi!" and then feel like shit because the person you walked there with is a mile away feeling awkward, and the person you are visiting is like, "WTF? Why are you with THEM!!!" END HYPOTHETICAL! Alright. That was what I had to go through last night except imagine I am Lorrie and Chantal is Matt. Just for that situation please. Now today, I talked to Lorrie because I wanted to see how she was doing. I read the live journal and fucking cried you bitch, I was just like WTF?! If I had known that I would have fucking flown there. (INSERT SHIT FEELING HERE) Not like you care. You know I almost think that the fact that I didn't go visit you pissed you off so fucking much you forgot about it for a couple minutes. Like I said, I'm letting go. Now how many times did we hang out this summer 'cause I forgot? Oh yes...NONE! I know you were busy, but I mean J**** FUCKIN CHRIST! How much of a prick do you have to be to forget you're own fucking friend all summer? It's almost like you don't even care. Wow! It's almost like someone is controlling my mind and making me say these awful things, OR MAYBE I HAVE FREE FUCKING WILL! Sometimes you cross the fucking line! This is one of those times. I had to listen to both of your shit about GYM CLASS. You know what's going to happen? I'm not even going to acknowledge that fact that either of you are there. I might as well be dead so I don't have to deal with it anymore. THREE FUCKING DAYS into the school year and I ALREADY WANT TO DIE! THE END!

I'm on the first pit stop on the way to Canada. I am currently at my aunt and uncle's house. They are awesome. They have such a cool house and little kitties. First, the plane at the airport was called a "Beachcraft" plane. It was tiny and had propellors. <=| I was freakin' out but it was wicked fun. I could see the ground, but float above the first layer of clouds. It was awesome. At the time, I was listening to Queen so I was fine. The plane flew through a bunch of clouds so it was great. We landed with much turbulence, but we still reached the ground. Then, in the tiny Burlington, Vermont airport we met my aunt and uncle. =) When we got into Burlington, we shopped around. I didn't buy anything but thought about it. Hehe! I saw the greatest view of the clouds from the sky, but I didn't have a camera on the plane. =( I' am gonna go sleep for tomorrow, but I will pst later. Aim doesn't work so I will update later. I have a four star hotel and I think it has a computer. So yea. Bye Bye. <3

I am restless. I was so wound up I walked 6 miles. Then, I came home like two minutes ago. I can't sleep. I am currently packing my luggage for Canada. ^_^ I can't wait, although I will miss a lot of people. Still need requests. Damn it! I can't sleep! Someone put me to sleep. I should take pills, but last time a tried that i took an anti-depressant instead of a sleeping pill. (yes I have a lot of pills, don't know why) I gotta go lay down. Later. O and Beck I don't break up paragraphs because I am a lazy bastard. Sorry. Freddie Mercury does make me cry sometimes lol. God < Freddie! Love yall.


-James

P.S. The first song is by Motion City Soundtrack and the second one is by Nine Inch Nails. Download them now! <3

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✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.  (Don't make a habit of it.)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (Ha...no)	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (Not in this world, but I try.)
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (Unfortunately.)	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (Almost everywhere.)

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